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有一晚 我夢見爸媽
他們催促著我執行李 很慌很亂
很多事情都未辦妥 我就快要上機了

然後我醒來了
我看見我的天花板很高 房間很黑 四周很靜
過了一會 我流了淚 其實我也不知道為什麼
那個夢不是太傷感 只是追追趕趕怕上不了飛機

來了這裡我是夢見過爸媽好幾次
夢見你就只有兩次
曾經有人跟我說過在你的腦袋快將一個人或一件事忘記之前
你會發夢 夢及那人那事一至兩次
然後腦袋就會把該人該事 permanent delete

那麼我發夢見到你
是否意味著我很快可以把你忘記

我才不要把你忘記
我寧願竟得所有傷心的事都不要把你忘記
一直都不想承認我來這裡的原因
很多人都問我為何突然有這個決定
我舉出很多很多理由
進修啦 想辭工啦 想看看外面的世界啦
其實通通都不是

只是我一直在逃避
別要再說我有勇氣
其實我懦弱得沒人可比

I dreamed of dad and mum a night

they urged me to pack my luggage and everything was so messy

I needed to check in the flight however a lot of things haven't fixed yet

I woke up

I find the room spacious, dark and silent

I started sobbing after a while without any reasons

The dream wasn't that sad, it was only too hurried

I dreamed of family for several times after coming here

but twice for you

someone said that if your brain is going to forget or rinse someone / something up,

you would dream of that once or twice beforehand 

then the brain will delete it permanently

Is it why I dream of you too?

Does it mean I would forget you so soon

to be honest I don't want to

I prefer all the sadness related to you rather than forgetting you

I never admit the reason for coming here

So many people asked me why do I have such a decision

I raised so many excuses

upgrade myself, want to resign, want to broaden my horizons…etc

actually they are not

I am escaping

Friends saying that I am brave

but I am a coward