I wonder

i wonder if i would

no appetite at all
getting insomnia
cry like a bitch
doing everything to express my depression

but i didn't

but only
forget crossing the road even the traffic light is in green sometimes
two more pimples on face
choose some soul songs for myself to fit in when singing karaoke with friends

i try hard to, very hard to remind myself to continue my life as normal

i can
does not equal that

i am fine


我以為
我會
沒有胃口
不能入睡
大哭一場
做盡一切可以令我發泄的事

可是我沒有

只是
有時忘了過馬路
臉上長了數粒痘痘
唱K時會選擇慘情的歌好讓自己對號入座

我盡量 盡量提醒自己繼續過一些比正常還正常的生活

但做得到
並不等於

我不難過